I like control.  I like to know that others do what they say they are going to do.  I make mistakes, and I know this, and recently was made acutely aware of a mistake that I made.  But why do some make the same mistakes over and over?  Do I talk just to hear myself?  No, most times it is because I have important information to rely to others.  I just hate feeling like no one is listening ot me.  This lack of control is killing me and is making me highly cranky at home as well.  Part of it is me....and part of it is something that I have absolutely no control over.  Which is killing me more?

I am at the point today of wanting to break things or just sit here and cry.  I have not decided how to let these emotions out just yet.  I did end up yelling at the dog....she gave me the sad eyes and then I felt extremely guilty.

A lot of vague sentences scatter this post.......sorry about that.  Details cannot be shared because the internet is a fragile and public place.

I think crying will win out.  Here they come, the burning tears of frustration.